Friday, September 12, 2008

Killer instinct turned liboger thoughts

Mr. T: Kung gagamitin ko lang katarantaduhan ko, ipinadampot ko na 'yun kagabi pa.
Misis T: Relax baby... Ngayon lang kita nakita ng nagalit na ganito ah... I like it... para kang barbaric.. wild ba, hahahahaha!
Mr. T: Sira ulo ka talaga, napangiti tuloy ako. Barbaric ka jan!
Misis T: Barbaric... and sexy...
Mr. T: Asus at gusto pa pala nito barumbado ako!
Misis T: Hindi no... gusto ko lang na lumalaban ka na. Hindi ka na tatahimik tahimik lang, hehehehe! Gusto mo itali mo pa ako sa kama eh, ehek! (liboger thoughts)
Mr. T: Aba, aba! At pumayag na! Hahahaha.. i'll save this email convo. Hekhekhek!
Misis T: Wag ka na magalit ngarud... relax...Kaya kita mahal na mahal eh... extremes ang dating hehehehe!


It's amazing how we, as a couple, could make each other smile despite of how negative the circumstances are. That's why I miss my wife so much.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

UKG

This morning at Umagang Kay Ganda.


Audience A, mostly HRM students.

Audience A pa rin, inggit ang audience B kasi palaging nasa kanila ang mga host.

Inside the studion with Marie Paz, Rose, Yoly, Tita Sosi and Mam Ophen.

Jamming session with Silent Sanctuary

Mam Ophen with Bernadette Sembrano and Kim Atienza

UP Naming Mahal...

Congratulations to the UP Pep Squad! The 2008 Samsung Cheerdance Competition Champions. Two years in a row!



Samantalang dati, istorbo kayo tuwing nagpa-practice kaming mga varsity. Ngayon, mukhang kuha niyo ang space namin sa gym! Hehehehe!

JV Duque, ikaw nga ba ang first ever coach nito?

You make us proud!

Last year's performance...

Saturday, September 6, 2008

My one great love

I was trying to figure out the answer to the question Bakit ba kasi mahal na mahal kita? and stumbled upon this article by Lucie Chevalier. The introduction caught my attention, it says:

Some people -- it is not certain if they are the lucky ones or the unlucky ones -- have had One Great Love; a love whose intensity and mutuality allowed no doubt that it was the real thing; a love that never lost its quality of strangeness; a love that, years later, still makes the throat catch when it's remembered; a love whose unfolding remolded the selves of both people, as when a graft on a branch forms a new tree. In some cases -- may they be happy! -- these couples stay together. In others, the couple resist the graft, spooked by the power of the enchantment that entwined them, or disliking the new hybrid. They separate, and the separation is damaging; it is like surgery. The two people stagger off their separate ways, unentwined, fiercely seeking to resume their prior independence, but it cannot be fully restored. They retain the twists of the joint self they formed against the now-absent other half. How can they stop feeling the loss of the vanished lover when their shape still reflects his outline? How can they learn to grow separately, how can they bring themselves to bend to a new suitor? And will they ever find a new graft to complement their hybrid nature?

I was awed. Nicely written. I have tried and tried to answer the question but for almost two decades now I haven't found the answer yet. I don't intend to answer the question anymore though I am intrigued by the depth of the question. Mahirap kasi talagang sagutin. Pero masarap damhin. Time and time again, we may feel that we have given it all for the person we truly love. But it proves us wrong, we can give more than we can imagine. And that intrigues me. The power of love. I cannot argue with it.

Love really does move in mysterious ways.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Warning signal

Incubus - Drive

Sometimes, I feel the fear of,
uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask
myself how much I'll let the fear
take the wheel and steer.

It's driven me before, and it seems to a faint,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I, am beginning to find that I,
should be the one behing the wheel.

Chorus

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
with open arms and open eyes, yeah.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
I'll be there....

So if I, decide to waiver my,
chance to be one of, the hive.
Will I, choose water over wine
and hold my own and drive?

It's driven me before, and it seems to be the way,
that everyone else gets around,
But lately I'm, beginning to find that,
When I drive myself my light is found.

Chorus

Would you choose, water over wine,
hold the wheel and drive...

Chorus

Sometimes, I feel the fear of,
uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask
myself how much I'll let the fear
take the wheel and steer.

It's driven me before, and it seems to a faint,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I, am beginning to find that I,
should be the one behing the wheel.

Chorus

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
with open arms and open eyes, yeah.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
I'll be there....

So if I, decide to waiver my,
chance to be one of, the hive.
Will I, choose water over wine
and hold my own and drive?

It's driven me before, and it seems to be the way,
that everyone else gets around,
But lately I'm, beginning to find that,
When I drive myself my light is found.

Chorus

Would you choose, water over wine,
hold the wheel and drive...

Chorus

Blink and you miss a beat
Keep pne of your eyes open at all times.
Think that you're on the brink?
The shit hasn't even begun to hit the fan.
Consequence you'll see will be stranger
than a ganng of drunken mimes.
Situation has a stink.
Better clear the air before
your son becomes a man.

Blink, everything's been augmented,
you've been left so far behind.
I think, for sure, next time
you should wear a pair of eyes
in the back or your head.
Consequence you've seen
has been stranger than si-fi of any kind.
Situation baffles me,
I guess it's ture, you too
are one of the walking dead.

(Chorus):
You better think fast!
Casue you never know
whats comming around the bend.
You better not blink!
For consequence is a bigger
word than you think.
It's bigger than you or me
(Repeat) Chorus

If we train our breathing, we can control our emotions--that is, we can cope with the happiness and pain in our lives. We should practice until we feel this; our practice is not complete until we can see this clearly.

- Buddhadasa Bhikkhu, "Mindfulness with Breathing"


Whenever I feel sad, lonely, stressed and what-have-you's I always make it a point to drive. There's so much energy inside of me that needs to be released. And I usually find an outlet in driving. During my younger years, it was writing. Well, at some point something changes. Now I can find release in driving.

Yesterday I felt the need for speed, so to speak. So I took my helmet, rode my bike and started driving. I have no fixed destination in mind. I just wanted to see nature while driving. I headed north, but before I could even reach Patubig my brakes went nuts. Lumusot ang preno ko sa harap. I don't normally use the front brake but my speed was 60km/hr and when I reach that speed I simultaneously use the front and rear brakes to control my Little Devil. So, I slowed down and tried to fix it. But I can't.

I decided to hear Mass. What happened during the celebration was again, inspiring. I don't know why but I found myself sobbing. After a little chat with God I knew right then and there that everything will be alright. He does that, always. And I believe him.

I guess that warning signal transmitted itself to the other side of the globe. Such connection that we have can never be equalled. And I intend to keep it, handle it with care. Treasure it.

Truly, when danger lurks behind me a warning signal is transmitted at the other side of the globe. Don't know why, don't know how. It just is.







Hawakan mo ang manibela
paliparin ang gunita sa mga ala-ala
lunurin ang sarili sa hangin ng pagsinta
hanggang sa umangat ang gulong sa kalsada.

Subukan mong bitawan ang manibela
tanggalin ang kontrol sa mapagbirong tadhana
isabay ang katawan sa paghampas ng gunita
hanggang maramdaman mong ang katawa'y patang-pata na.

Lamunin ka man ng alikabok at ulan
hayaang pumailanlang sa kalawakan ang iyong agam-agam
buksan ang puso sa katotohanan
na ika'y isang sinumpang nilalang.

Kaya't sa saliw ng hangin ika'y pumailanlang
kalimutan ang lahat at iyong ipaglaban
pag-ibig na tunay ay iyong panghawakan
ilang libong taon man ang magdaan,

ikaw lang, ikaw lang.

Kaya mula ngayon sa katotohan isisilang
ang sinumpang nilalang na nasadlak sa kalawakan
unti-unting gabayan sa pagtayo sa kawalan
mula sa kinasasadlakang kasinungalingan.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

On fears and trust

This I learned and relearned for the nth time..

Never think that I believe I should set out a "system of teaching" to help people understand the way. Never cherish such a thought. What I proclaim is the truth as I have discovered it and "a system of teaching" has no meaning because the truth can’t be cut up into pieces and arranged in a system.

- Diamond Sutra

I should identify my fears, I once thought that I have none. But now, everything changed. Everything.

IDENTIFY THE FEARS THAT KEEP YOU FROM YOUR DREAMS
by Lisa Jimenez, M. Ed.


Most people spend their energy running from, or denying their fears. They waste this precious energy in denial. They react with excuses, anxiety, sabotage, and self-defeating behaviors. Don’t let this happen to you! When you expose your true fears, you break their control over you. Have the courage to face your fears and free yourself to get on with all you were meant to do, have, and be.

Which fear has the most control over you and your behaviors today? Is it the fear of rejection? Fear of failure? Fear of making decisions? Fear of commitment and responsibility? Fear of loss? Fear of success?

Or is it a combination of these fears? Take some time to evaluate your behaviors and find the messages of fear in them. We’ll go through each of these fears in the next few articles and discover which fears are holding you back.

Identify the Fears That Keep You from Your Dreams!


Gusto kong maglahong parang bula.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

SMCM Intrams 2008






Ethan and Janna dancing Push It



Went to my HS alma mater before going to work this morning. I kinda miss being in HS. Lots of memories. Hmmmmm.. I also felt proud of my nephew and godson Ethan and my niece and goddaughter Janna for performing well this morning.
Ganun pala feeling ng may anak! Ehek!

What is the self? If something is true, is real, is constant, is a foundation of a nature that is unchanging, this can be called the self. For the sake of sentient beings, in all the truths I have taught, there is such a self. This, monks, is for you to cultivate.

- Mahaparinirvana Sutra

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Sunday treat

After mass this morning I got myself a little treat. I ate at Kitaro, bought my phone a new 512 MB DV RS-MMC (that's the highest my phone could handle, too bad!) and a new back support. My old back support is almost 18 years old and its time that I got a new one.

I got my wife volumes 10-12 of the Lobo series. She loves the character of Lyka and Noah so much because they remind her of us. Hehehehe! I haven't watched the entire series yet, I might do so when I'm with her during sembreak. The sales lady told me that there's volumes 13-15 yet to be released by ABS-CBN. Geez! My wife's going to get crazy, Mahaba-habang puyatan na naman ito!

My Mom was worried last night, I went to bed early. Unusual since its a weekend. My Dad told me that Mom was telling her that I should have used the A/C last night. It was freaking humid and when that happens, I find it hard to breath. Para kasi akong kandilang nauupos, nanghihina ako. I told my Dad that I'm okay.

I'm so blessed I have them in my life.

;)

Friday, August 29, 2008

TGIF

I had a busy day. Early in the morning I did all the paper work I left last night. I couldn't function well last night after the meeting. I was exhausted. But before I went home I had to check on my people. I did my round of the campus and found out that one of my utility personnel was sleeping inside the tricycle during his work hours. I talked to the guy and asked for an explanation. Told him that next time I will serve him with a written warning.

In class, I had a wonderful time. HRM 2A is one of my favorite sections in the college. They're all attentive, interested and willing to learn. Even if I'm not in the mood to deliver a lecture, just one question from them and my interest and passion would start to surge. I rarely get that from private school students. That is the reason why I am happy serving in a local public college.

I'm just having a hard time adjusting to the position, never in my dreams did I aspire on becoming a school administrator. I just wanted to share what I know and what I've experienced with students.

For now, I am just thankful that it's Friday. And tomorrow is my rest day.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Extended

My temporary appointment as Acting Dean of the College has been extended until the second week of September. Geez! More responsibilities, paper works and the likes. I thought that it's going to be just for a few days.

The meeting has just been adjourned and now I've got a lot of things to do. Tomorrow is another day. Thank God it's Friday!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Dreaded day

I hate Thursday and Saturdays. Why? Because of the admin council meeting. Kainis! Haaaay. Thursday na naman ngayon, aabutin na naman ako ng gabi mamaya. Iniisip ko na lang wala akong pasok sa Saturday kasi holiday kaya mejo magaan ang pakiramdam. Hehehehe..

Mas masarap talaga magturo kesa magka-posisyon.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Acting Dean

This has been a very busy day for me. From paper works in the morning, class in the middle of the day, to another administration meeting with the clerks in the afternoon.. hah! What can I say? Toxic. And to think that the effective date of me being an acting dean for an entire week will be tomorrow. OMG!

For a week I'm going to have a taste of what it's like to be a dean of the college (as if I didn't know that and as if I am not acting like one for the past few months). Well, at least it's official. I never thought that I'm going to be the one who'll be put in that position since I am new as an administrator - four months to be exact. And it is only this month that I got the title of Human Resource Management Officer. Whew! I've been acting as officer-in-charge for the past four months. And now that I'm the HRM Officer, I will be put to the test.

More paper works, more policies to deliberate, concerns to be heard, problems to be solved.

Ah, talk about the price I have to pay for going on a scheduled vacation this coming sem break. Ahhhgggg!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Handang Maghintay, Noel Cabangon

Kay layo nating dalawa
Lagi’t lagi kang ala-ala
Minsan sa’king panaginip
Doon lang kita nakakaniig

Ang mga sulat mo’y, lagi kong tangan-tangan
Sa Poon ay dasal, d ka pababayaan
Akoy naririrto, magkalayo man tayo
Handang maghintay sayo

Magkalayo man ang ating mundo
Ikaw ang laging nasa aking puso
Tulad ng awit ng ating pag-ibig
Sa tuwina ay naririnig

Ang mga sulat mo, lagi kong tangan-tangan
Sa Poon ay dasal, d ka pababayaan
Akoy naririrto, magkalayo man tayo
Handang maghintay sayo

What kind of person am I?

Am I the kind of person who makes things happen?

Am I the kind of person who watch things happen?

Am I the kind of person who ask, what happened?

This morning, these are the questions which I wanted to reflect on.

I had a troubled night. Even before I tucked myself in to bed I experienced chest pains. Quite normal for me. But I had a hard time sleeping.

A text message shocked the hell out of me. I sat in my bed and cried.

What kind of person am I?

This I have to reflect on. For now, let me drive. I need to clear things out of my head. Where am I going? I don't know. I just need to drive.

Friday, August 22, 2008

Basic customer service

I am fuming mad. All afternoon I've been waiting for a person who made a promise to deliver an item at a specific time. I received an early text message informing me that all documents will be delivered in the morning. I acknowledged and waited. But I stayed in the office until five in the afternoon for the document, still no one from that office even bothered to call me up or send me a text message. Talk about basic customer service.

I tried to call, once, twice, thrice until I lost count. I decided to drop by their office. I confronted the assistant, still I didn't get a satisfactory answer. All I got were apologies. I told her she could have called me up if they couldn't deliver it on time so that I'll be the one to get it from their office. A simple courtesy like that would have been appreciated, but no, not even a word.

This evening, after stopping by at their office twice today, I got a text message apologizing for the delay. I answered politely but stressed that they should deliver on the date they said they will, that's basic customer service.

Pasalamat sila at polite pa ako. Kontrolado ko pa galit ko niyan. 'Yan ang isa sa mga ikinakukulo ng dugo ko, ang di pagtupad sa takdang usapan. Gusto mo kong galitin? Bigyan mo ako ng araw at oras pagkatapos huwag kang sumipot.

Sabi nga ni Miss Apple sa training session ko sa kanya, may dalawang klase ng customer - isang walker at isang talker.
During the training I admitted that I am a walker. But now, I am starting to become a talker.

Oldie kasi..

Misis Tikboy: dapat bleeding heart ang song ko syo eh... hahahaha!
Mr. Tikboy: nyaiks!
Mr. Tikboy: kaw talaga
Mr. Tikboy: i love you..
Mr. Tikboy: mwaaaaah!
Misis Tikboy: hehehehe... ganda naman lyrics nun ah..
Mr. Tikboy: sino nga ba kumanta nun?
Misis Tikboy: teka, alam mo ba ung song na un prof oliva?
Mr. Tikboy: naririnig ko mahal..
Misis Tikboy: leona lewis
Mr. Tikboy: nagpapatugtog sila dito eh, hindi ba jordin stark un?
Misis Tikboy: hahahahahahah!
Misis Tikboy: hahahahaha!
Mr. Tikboy: mali pa ata ako sa pangalan!
Mr. Tikboy: hekhekhek!
Misis Tikboy: mahal ha.... buti na lang nde tayo magkasama ngayon... napaiyak mo na naman ako sa tawa
Misis Tikboy: hahahahaha!
Misis Tikboy: una sa lahat si leona lewis ang kumanta nung song.
Misis Tikboy: pangalawa, nde jordin stark kung nde jordin sparks.
Mr. Tikboy: hehehe.. hindi ko ata alam un song na yun.. bago lang ba?
Mr. Tikboy: eh di naluluha ka na naman sa tawa nyan?
Misis Tikboy: hahahaha! c jordin sparks un nanalo sa american idol na kumanta ng tattoo..
Mr. Tikboy: hehehe.. di talaga ko updated
Mr. Tikboy: hindi ko siya kilala at hindi ko rin alam ung tattoo!
Ma-L: naslap ko pa nuo ko sa kakatawa nung sinabi mo un jordin stark
Mr. Tikboy: ehek!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Dying to have one of these

HP 2133 Mini-Note PC
Operating system installed SUSE Linux Enterprise Desktop
Via C7-M (1.2G)
1024MB DDR RAM
56K Modem, 802.11b/g,Bluetooth
120GB HDD
3-Cell LiIon Battery
Linux
ASUS EEE PC 901
Genuine Windows XP® Home
GNU Linux
8.9"
Intel® Atom N270
WLAN: 802.11 n
Bluetooth: YES
1GB (DDR2)
SSD 12GB (Genuine Windows® XP Home)
SSD 20GB (Linux)
1.3M Pixel
Dolby Sound Room Certified
Stereo speaker
Digital Array Mic
6 Cells, 4.2 ~ 8 hrs*(Genuine Windows® XP Home)
6 Cells, 4.5 ~6 hrs*(Linux)
1.1 kg
Red, Green, Black, Peony White, Pearl White and Fine Ebony
Acer Aspire One
8.9-inch 1024 x 600 LED-backlit display
1.6GHz Atom N270
512MB DDR2 SDRAM (expandable to 1GB)
1.3 megapixel camera, SDHC and multi-format media readers
802.11b/g, Ethernet, three USB 2.0, VGA, and 3.5mm audio out
One free mini PCI slot for WWAN
80GB hard drive (with XP) or 8GB solid state (with Linux)
2.5 to 5 hours between the 3 and 6-cell batteries in XP model, 3 or 7 hours on Linux
1kg (2.2 pounds)

Baha

Umaga pa lang walang tigil na ng kakatunog ang cellphone ko.

"May pasok po ba?"
"May pasok ba St. Mary's?"
"Nag-announce na ba?"

Tulog pa ako, napilitan akong gumising para sagutin ang mga text. Matindi na naman kasi hagupit ng hangin at gabi pa lang wala nang tigil ang ulan. Si Karen kasi, nag-landfall na kaninang alas siete ng umaga.

Nakapasok pa naman ako, elem at HS lang ang sinabing walang pasok. Pagdating sa school, text dito, sagot ng tawag sa landline. May pasok nga, pambihira. Parang mga hindi nakikinig sa radyo at nanunuod ng balita.

Hanggang mga bandang alas nueve, kinailangan nang ipaalam sa mga opisyal ang sitwasyon. Baha na sa mga major roads, magha-high tide pa ng lunchtime. Ang ending, nag-suspend rin ng klase mga bandang 11:25. Hindi pa ako agad nakauwi kasi kinailangan pang mag-check ng school premises. After lunch, nag-decide na kaming umuwi. Tumataas na kasi ang tubig. Wala na madaanan sa campus.



Pagdating ko dito sa bahay, ito ang bumungad sa akin... baha!








Kaya nga gusto ko nang lumipat ng bahay. Almost every other day na lang, basta matindi ang ulan ganito ang nabubungaran ko sa umaga at pag-uwi sa hapon.

Haaaaay!