I opened my email today and read a message From the Masters that is all about the four emotions that can lead to life change, it was written by Jim Rohn. He said that emotions are the most powerful forces inside us. And of all the emotions we are capable of feeling, only four can lead us to life change. These are: disgust, decision, desire and resolve.
Disgust is a negative emotion which can turn positive when you say to yourself "Enough is enough." It could lead to a life changing decision which could alter our lives forever. And whatever decision we make, we must have a desire to want it. And if we really, really want it these words will come out of our lips: I will.
Of all the four, I could say that I once faltered at the last one: resolve. But I have learned my lesson. I know what I want and I am decided to get it. Probably you're going to throw me a question, for how long will it take me to make it a reality.. I would simply say this to you:
As long as it takes.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Decisions
Last week in my Philippine history class, we were discussing McKinley's benevolent assimilation proclamation and then the Philippine independence missions. I underestimated my students critical thinking skills. I thought that they were just like my former history students who were just going through the motions of complying with the requirements to pass the subject. Otherwise they couldn't graduate from their chosen courses. When they heard of the missions sent to the US Congress in the 1930's for the Filipino's desire to become independent of any foreign power, they told me that it was a waste of time and money. They also asked my why in the hell do we need to get the approval of the United States just to get our so called independence? I didn't even had the chance to answer it because the class did. The Philippines was served in a silver platter to the USA after the Treaty of Paris. At first, they didn't know what to do, whether to accept it or just let us be. That's what Dewey told Aguinaldo anyway during their meeting prior to the Mock Battle of Manila. But they already invested $20 million. And the decision finally came after McKinley's proclamation. They have this herculean task of educating the Filipinos. So he ordered the military occupation.
With the rise of ML Quezon and the likes, the Filipinos clamored for independence. They wanted to prove that they could run the country without the Americans. It took several missions, nine, if I am not mistaken, to bring it to reality. The HHC Act was finally approved by the US Congress and was approved by the President of the USA. However, ML Quezon was not happy about it because he couldn't take the credit for it, that was why he didn't sign it. Then came the Tydings-McDuffie law - and here we are, independent as we claim it.
If things were different, if ML Quezon, Sergio Osmena didn't clamor for independence, we would have been a territory of the USA. We could have been another Guam or Saipan. So, I asked my students if they were in favor of this. They said NO. They want an independent Philippines, much to my surprise.
They were debating about it in class, I was hearing comments and ideas I have never heard nor imagined they were capable of even thinking. Right there and then, I knew that I made the right decision.
In the attempt to ease whatever feeling that I have, they made me feel proud. That somehow, I made a good decision in my life.
That in almost everything that I have done, I have done something good.
Even if I am stupid. Even if I am an asshole. Even if I lied.
I don't want to lie anymore. My heart is full of remorse right now. For not saying the things that I should have said. For hiding the things that I should have exposed. Now, I am having a hard time earning the trust that I had before.
And it is because of my stupid decisions. My mistakes. My lies.
With the rise of ML Quezon and the likes, the Filipinos clamored for independence. They wanted to prove that they could run the country without the Americans. It took several missions, nine, if I am not mistaken, to bring it to reality. The HHC Act was finally approved by the US Congress and was approved by the President of the USA. However, ML Quezon was not happy about it because he couldn't take the credit for it, that was why he didn't sign it. Then came the Tydings-McDuffie law - and here we are, independent as we claim it.
If things were different, if ML Quezon, Sergio Osmena didn't clamor for independence, we would have been a territory of the USA. We could have been another Guam or Saipan. So, I asked my students if they were in favor of this. They said NO. They want an independent Philippines, much to my surprise.
They were debating about it in class, I was hearing comments and ideas I have never heard nor imagined they were capable of even thinking. Right there and then, I knew that I made the right decision.
In the attempt to ease whatever feeling that I have, they made me feel proud. That somehow, I made a good decision in my life.
That in almost everything that I have done, I have done something good.
Even if I am stupid. Even if I am an asshole. Even if I lied.
I don't want to lie anymore. My heart is full of remorse right now. For not saying the things that I should have said. For hiding the things that I should have exposed. Now, I am having a hard time earning the trust that I had before.
And it is because of my stupid decisions. My mistakes. My lies.
"Why"
Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Word for the day
Totoo sa sinasabi
Alisin ang alinlangan
Pangako, walang iwanan
Alaala lagi
Taos sa puso
Ito ang natutunan ko ngayong umagang ito - ang salitang tapat.
In today's gospel, Matthew tells a story of a father who asked his sons to work in the vineyard. One said no, but changed his mind and eventually went. The second said yes but didn't even go to the vineyard. Jesus said that the first did the will of his father. But if we are going to think about it, both of them brought sama ng loob to their father.
As I reflect on it, I am reminded that there are two kinds of people who roam the face of the earth. One, those are good who eventually turned bad. And two, those who are bad who eventually turned good.
In the dichotomy of good and bad, of what is moral and immoral, people may have had different definitions. The term could be relative. But one thing is for sure - the innate goodness that a person possesses.
We are all good. For God is good, all the time.
Alisin ang alinlangan
Pangako, walang iwanan
Alaala lagi
Taos sa puso
Ito ang natutunan ko ngayong umagang ito - ang salitang tapat.
In today's gospel, Matthew tells a story of a father who asked his sons to work in the vineyard. One said no, but changed his mind and eventually went. The second said yes but didn't even go to the vineyard. Jesus said that the first did the will of his father. But if we are going to think about it, both of them brought sama ng loob to their father.
As I reflect on it, I am reminded that there are two kinds of people who roam the face of the earth. One, those are good who eventually turned bad. And two, those who are bad who eventually turned good.
In the dichotomy of good and bad, of what is moral and immoral, people may have had different definitions. The term could be relative. But one thing is for sure - the innate goodness that a person possesses.
We are all good. For God is good, all the time.
Not thinking about anything is zen. Once you know this, walking, standing, sitting, or lying down, everything you do is zen. To know that the mind is empty is to see the Buddha...Using the mind to look for reality is delusion. Not using the mind to look for reality is awareness. Freeing oneself from words is liberation.
- Bodhidharma
- Bodhidharma
Anak, buhay ka pa ba?
That is the exact words of my mom when I got home three nights ago. I don't
know if she senses something, she never really asks. I just kissed her
hand and said, "Wish ko nga hindi na ako buhay eh" and then I laughed
to cover the sincerity of my words.
Funny, I have been awake for the longest time despite the long hours
of work. I just don't want to have a dull moment so that I could not
think. I am tired of thinking. I just want to feel and experience life
unfolding before my very eyes. But as fate would have it, I think I
have run out of time.
I said that I will not choke again, I said that I will keep on
believing.. I believe that it could happen. Whoever wants to ruin
everything will not succeed. I will make sure of that. I will track
you down even if it would cost me my life.
I will not lose hope. I will not falter. I will not choke.
know if she senses something, she never really asks. I just kissed her
hand and said, "Wish ko nga hindi na ako buhay eh" and then I laughed
to cover the sincerity of my words.
Funny, I have been awake for the longest time despite the long hours
of work. I just don't want to have a dull moment so that I could not
think. I am tired of thinking. I just want to feel and experience life
unfolding before my very eyes. But as fate would have it, I think I
have run out of time.
I said that I will not choke again, I said that I will keep on
believing.. I believe that it could happen. Whoever wants to ruin
everything will not succeed. I will make sure of that. I will track
you down even if it would cost me my life.
I will not lose hope. I will not falter. I will not choke.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
Destined for greatness
I wasn't paying much attention to my dad this evening because I was busy chatting. He was blabbering about past memories of me and my siblings. He said he couldn't remember a negative memory involving me except for that one incident when they made me wear a skirt when I was in grade three. I told him it wasn't a negative memory, actually it was funny. My dad, mom and Buboy was actually talking about engrams.. their personal engrams. Dad said that he retraced the memory that triggered his negative reaction whenever a baby cries. He'd turned violent and really angry when he hears a baby cry. He said that he now remembers why. He remembered that time that he was made to baby sit my Kuya Jun (RIP) and Ate Maricel when they were babies. And they cried during his watch. He didn't know what to do and he hated myself for it. Until recently, he didn't know that it was that moment which triggered emotions and reactions. Again, he was explaining dianetics.
Mom had a different kind of fear. She was afraid of my dad's car. She said she couldn't forget that moment when my dad pulled her out of the stage while conducting (she was a music teacher) during a performance and told her to get into the car and took off with an alarming speed. Since then, my mom doesn't want to get inside the car specially when my dad's temper is up.
My dad was telling me that he couldn't remember anything negative about my childhood memories. Sabi niya, ewan lang daw nung nag-aaral na ako kasi hindi na niya alam kung ano nangyayari sa akin. There's a lot of things that my dad doesn't know about me. An awful lot.
He was asking me but I refused to answer, I was busy. Then again, for the nth time he said, "Wag mong biguin si Tito Ugin mo." I told him, "Ano?" "Sabi niya sa akin nung unang pagkakita pa lang niya sa 'yo at nakausap ka niya, mas magaling ka kaysa sa akin. I-hone daw kita, i-train daw kita dahil ikaw ang papalit sa akin. Masyado ka lang daw maraming emotional baggage kaya ayaw lumitaw ng galing mo." I just shrugged my shoulders and said to myself. Emotional baggage? I threw them all away. Pagod na ako eh. "Hindi lang kita ma-process kasi anak kita eh. Matinding kalaban ang affinity."
Engrams? I have many. I know it but I haven't processed it yet.
Destined for greatness? Yeah right. The power of positive thinking.
One word says it all. BELIEVE.
Mom had a different kind of fear. She was afraid of my dad's car. She said she couldn't forget that moment when my dad pulled her out of the stage while conducting (she was a music teacher) during a performance and told her to get into the car and took off with an alarming speed. Since then, my mom doesn't want to get inside the car specially when my dad's temper is up.
My dad was telling me that he couldn't remember anything negative about my childhood memories. Sabi niya, ewan lang daw nung nag-aaral na ako kasi hindi na niya alam kung ano nangyayari sa akin. There's a lot of things that my dad doesn't know about me. An awful lot.
He was asking me but I refused to answer, I was busy. Then again, for the nth time he said, "Wag mong biguin si Tito Ugin mo." I told him, "Ano?" "Sabi niya sa akin nung unang pagkakita pa lang niya sa 'yo at nakausap ka niya, mas magaling ka kaysa sa akin. I-hone daw kita, i-train daw kita dahil ikaw ang papalit sa akin. Masyado ka lang daw maraming emotional baggage kaya ayaw lumitaw ng galing mo." I just shrugged my shoulders and said to myself. Emotional baggage? I threw them all away. Pagod na ako eh. "Hindi lang kita ma-process kasi anak kita eh. Matinding kalaban ang affinity."
Engrams? I have many. I know it but I haven't processed it yet.
Destined for greatness? Yeah right. The power of positive thinking.
One word says it all. BELIEVE.
Little Devil ko
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ayaw niya umalis. Ilang beses ko na siya sinubukang bitawan. Pero hanggang ngayon andito pa rin siya sa tabi ko. Alam niya pag mainit ulo ko. Siya kasama ko pag galit ako. Pag naiinis ako. Pag malungkot ako. Hindi pa naman niya ako ipinahamak. Magaling lang siguro talaga akong driver, kahit na nagloloko na siya, nako-control ko pa rin. Kahit nung isang taon na na-disgrasya ako, siya ang total wreck, pero ako walang galos. Ni hindi ako sumemplang. Siguro, ganun niya ako kamahal. Kaya ngayon, kahit gusto ko na siyang bitawan, ayaw niyang umalis.
Kung nakakapagsalita lang siya ngayon, sigurado puro tampo at hinaing ang sasabihin niya sa akin. Ipapaalala niya kung paano ko pinaghirapan na mapunta siya sa akin. Tapos heto ako, kabi-kabila ang pagpupursige para umalis siya. Ipinaliwanag ko naman sa kanya kung bakit. Pero ewan ko ba, ganun siguro talaga pag mahal ka.. at mahal mo rin. Masakit pero kailangan.
Hindi ko pa alam kung aalis siya sa akin o hindi. May isang buwan pa ako para malaman 'yun. Dapat sana kanina kukunin na siya, pero hindi natuloy.
Kaya pala, may ibang mawawala sa akin. Kaya hindi siya umalis.
Anger and hatred
I tend to refrain myself from blogging whenever I feel this way. I just want to take off and satisfy the need for speed. But in consideration to someone who worries a lot about me, I am drowning myself in this ocean of anger and hatred.
Cool Off
Yeng Constantino
Wag ka munang magalit
Ako sana’y pakinggan
Di ko balak ang ika’y saktan
Hindi ikaw ang problema
Wala akong iba
Di tulad ng iyong hinala
Sarili ay di maintindihan
Hindi ko malaman, ano ba ang dahilan
Ng pansatamantalang paghingi ko ng kalayaan
Minamahal kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa
Wag mong isipin na hindi ka na mahal
Sarili ko’y hahanapin ko lang
At ang panahon at oras ng aking pagkawala
Ay para rin sa atin dalawa
Wag ka sanang lumuha
Sana’y intindihin
Ito ang dapat nating gawin
Upang magkakilala pa
At malaman kung tayo
Ay para sa isa’t isa
Wag mong pigilin ang damdamin
Sa aking pagkawala, makahanap ka bigla ng iba
Ngunit pakakatandaan mo sana
Na mahal pa rin kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa
Sarili ay di maintindihan
Hindi ko malaman, ano ba ang dahilan
Ng pansatamantalang paghingi ko ng kalayaan
Minamahal kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa
Cool Off
Yeng Constantino
Wag ka munang magalit
Ako sana’y pakinggan
Di ko balak ang ika’y saktan
Hindi ikaw ang problema
Wala akong iba
Di tulad ng iyong hinala
Sarili ay di maintindihan
Hindi ko malaman, ano ba ang dahilan
Ng pansatamantalang paghingi ko ng kalayaan
Minamahal kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa
Wag mong isipin na hindi ka na mahal
Sarili ko’y hahanapin ko lang
At ang panahon at oras ng aking pagkawala
Ay para rin sa atin dalawa
Wag ka sanang lumuha
Sana’y intindihin
Ito ang dapat nating gawin
Upang magkakilala pa
At malaman kung tayo
Ay para sa isa’t isa
Wag mong pigilin ang damdamin
Sa aking pagkawala, makahanap ka bigla ng iba
Ngunit pakakatandaan mo sana
Na mahal pa rin kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa
Sarili ay di maintindihan
Hindi ko malaman, ano ba ang dahilan
Ng pansatamantalang paghingi ko ng kalayaan
Minamahal kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Table of organization
Last Saturday meeting was graced by the Academic Consultant (the former president of the college). I was awed by the profoundness of his thoughts. This guy knows what he's talking about, I muttered to myself. But that thought vanished when he started to repeat what he said after every ten minutes. Parang sirang plaka na. That's when I started to get bored. To flush the feeling out I started asking questions like I was in a classroom setting to which he answered knowingly. Sure I learned a lot of things. That in order to stay at my current post, I need to get 24 units of psychology and take another LET exam for it. I jokingly said that I'd drop the position anytime and go back to teaching. The council reacted. They don't want me to leave the post.
I did that again tonight during the meeting when the president, in an attempt to get my attention (she thought I wasn't listening to the discussion because I was scribbling notes) said that the council could just drop the HR post in the table of organization. I said, it's okay. I'd gladly go back to teaching. But she retracted and said she was only joking, that I was doing a good job at managing people. -Sigh-
Managing people, a challenge it is. Specially if the sub-culture of the college is built on politics. Kakapagod lumaro sa sayaw ng mga pulitiko at namumulitikang tao.
I did that again tonight during the meeting when the president, in an attempt to get my attention (she thought I wasn't listening to the discussion because I was scribbling notes) said that the council could just drop the HR post in the table of organization. I said, it's okay. I'd gladly go back to teaching. But she retracted and said she was only joking, that I was doing a good job at managing people. -Sigh-
Managing people, a challenge it is. Specially if the sub-culture of the college is built on politics. Kakapagod lumaro sa sayaw ng mga pulitiko at namumulitikang tao.
Saturdays and meetings
I just came from a three hour meeting and I don't feel well. I've been feeling a bit weird for the past few days, I feel nauseous and my heart is acting strange - chest pains and heaviness. I know it's the usual stuff and I am used to it but people have been noticing that I don't look good (still cute, just not the usual cuteness ;) hehehehe) and that I look sick.
My wife says that its maybe because I'm over excited. I've been granted a month-long vacation which can be extended for another month (yey!). Hmmmm.. come to think of it, yeah I am excited! I've been doing the countdown for almost a month now. Hehehehe! I've also been hearing good cheers from people but I want to take it one day at a time and prep myself that it is indeed a vacation. Don't want to get my hopes up (but I really feel that something good is about to come up when I'm there) so I try to down play it as much as I can.
I was tasked to teach every clerk in the department on how to use their 3G mobile phones to connect to the internet and update the desktop PCs anti-virus software. Oh well.. so that's third on my list of things to do for next week. On top of my list is the demonstration teaching that I have to organize on Friday. Funny, I was also asked to attend a seminar in AUF, Pampanga on that day. I'll just confirm it on Monday.
Ah, it's a weekend and here I am thinking of things that I'm going to do for the week to come. I just want to speed things up so that I could take my vacation! Aaaaarrrrgggghhhh!
My wife says that its maybe because I'm over excited. I've been granted a month-long vacation which can be extended for another month (yey!). Hmmmm.. come to think of it, yeah I am excited! I've been doing the countdown for almost a month now. Hehehehe! I've also been hearing good cheers from people but I want to take it one day at a time and prep myself that it is indeed a vacation. Don't want to get my hopes up (but I really feel that something good is about to come up when I'm there) so I try to down play it as much as I can.
I was tasked to teach every clerk in the department on how to use their 3G mobile phones to connect to the internet and update the desktop PCs anti-virus software. Oh well.. so that's third on my list of things to do for next week. On top of my list is the demonstration teaching that I have to organize on Friday. Funny, I was also asked to attend a seminar in AUF, Pampanga on that day. I'll just confirm it on Monday.
Ah, it's a weekend and here I am thinking of things that I'm going to do for the week to come. I just want to speed things up so that I could take my vacation! Aaaaarrrrgggghhhh!
Thursday, September 18, 2008
SG Induction & Turnover Ceremony
Yesterday morning I was advised to go to work earlier than usual because I needed to substitute for the TED Academic Head in inducting the student officers. I obliged. Here are some of the highlights of the event.
Bernard (soon to be OIC of CompLab), Me, Meia (soon to be OIC of HRD)
Me, HRM Head Rose, GTC Head Alex
with Dean Ricky and President Ophen
Induction proper
with Alex Garcia, President of the Teacher Education Society
Bernard (soon to be OIC of CompLab), Me, Meia (soon to be OIC of HRD)
Me, HRM Head Rose, GTC Head Alex
with Dean Ricky and President Ophen
Induction proper
with Alex Garcia, President of the Teacher Education Society
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Pusong mamon
I have always been diplomatic in my dealings with people. Before jumping to conclusion I usually give the other person the benefit of the doubt. But when I am pushed to the edge, I fight back. But I still hold back something. Deep inside me I know that we are created in the image and likeness of God. That somehow we are innately good. Experiences may have hardened and toughened us but I know deep inside that there is goodness in every person's heart.
Today, I felt just like that. I have been furious at someone for days because of fraud. I know that there are reasons behind the behavior and the actions of that person but for some reason, I set that aside and allowed myself to be angry. Not with the person per se but with her actions.
Galit ako pero nung nakaharap ko na siya, hindi ko makuhang magalit. May pagka-pusong mamon rin kasi ako.
Today, I felt just like that. I have been furious at someone for days because of fraud. I know that there are reasons behind the behavior and the actions of that person but for some reason, I set that aside and allowed myself to be angry. Not with the person per se but with her actions.
Galit ako pero nung nakaharap ko na siya, hindi ko makuhang magalit. May pagka-pusong mamon rin kasi ako.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Fury
If you keep thinking "That man has abused me," holding it as a much-cherished grievance, your anger will never be allayed. If you can put down that fury-inducing thought, your anger will lessen. Fury will never end fury, it will just ricochet on and on. Only putting it down will end such an abysmal state.
- Sunnata Vagga
I can't sleep. Darn!
- Sunnata Vagga
I can't sleep. Darn!
UKG part two
Inside the Loop Studio with Arnold, Marlon, Bernard, Aries, Gerard and Noel
The Manager, actually di ko alam na kinuhanan pala nila ako. I was at the other side of the set kasi. Nasa jamming session sila with MYMP saka sa cooking portion ng show.
HRM 2A. Jason, Onad, Raymond, Ade, Al John, Jonel, Leo, Bagz, Darren, Tiong and Jerson 
The Matrix, alin.. alin.. alin ang naiba. Isipin kung alin ang naiba!
Friday, September 12, 2008
Killer instinct turned liboger thoughts
Mr. T: Kung gagamitin ko lang katarantaduhan ko, ipinadampot ko na 'yun kagabi pa.
Misis T: Relax baby... Ngayon lang kita nakita ng nagalit na ganito ah... I like it... para kang barbaric.. wild ba, hahahahaha!
Mr. T: Sira ulo ka talaga, napangiti tuloy ako. Barbaric ka jan!
Misis T: Barbaric... and sexy...
Mr. T: Asus at gusto pa pala nito barumbado ako!
Misis T: Hindi no... gusto ko lang na lumalaban ka na. Hindi ka na tatahimik tahimik lang, hehehehe! Gusto mo itali mo pa ako sa kama eh, ehek! (liboger thoughts)
Mr. T: Aba, aba! At pumayag na! Hahahaha.. i'll save this email convo. Hekhekhek!
Misis T: Wag ka na magalit ngarud... relax...Kaya kita mahal na mahal eh... extremes ang dating hehehehe!
It's amazing how we, as a couple, could make each other smile despite of how negative the circumstances are. That's why I miss my wife so much.
Misis T: Relax baby... Ngayon lang kita nakita ng nagalit na ganito ah... I like it... para kang barbaric.. wild ba, hahahahaha!
Mr. T: Sira ulo ka talaga, napangiti tuloy ako. Barbaric ka jan!
Misis T: Barbaric... and sexy...
Mr. T: Asus at gusto pa pala nito barumbado ako!
Misis T: Hindi no... gusto ko lang na lumalaban ka na. Hindi ka na tatahimik tahimik lang, hehehehe! Gusto mo itali mo pa ako sa kama eh, ehek! (liboger thoughts)
Mr. T: Aba, aba! At pumayag na! Hahahaha.. i'll save this email convo. Hekhekhek!
Misis T: Wag ka na magalit ngarud... relax...Kaya kita mahal na mahal eh... extremes ang dating hehehehe!
It's amazing how we, as a couple, could make each other smile despite of how negative the circumstances are. That's why I miss my wife so much.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
UKG
This morning at Umagang Kay Ganda.
Audience A, mostly HRM students.
Audience A pa rin, inggit ang audience B kasi palaging nasa kanila ang mga host.
Inside the studion with Marie Paz, Rose, Yoly, Tita Sosi and Mam Ophen.
Jamming session with Silent Sanctuary
Mam Ophen with Bernadette Sembrano and Kim Atienza
Audience A, mostly HRM students.
Audience A pa rin, inggit ang audience B kasi palaging nasa kanila ang mga host.
Inside the studion with Marie Paz, Rose, Yoly, Tita Sosi and Mam Ophen.
Jamming session with Silent Sanctuary
Mam Ophen with Bernadette Sembrano and Kim Atienza
UP Naming Mahal...
Congratulations to the UP Pep Squad! The 2008 Samsung Cheerdance Competition Champions. Two years in a row!
Samantalang dati, istorbo kayo tuwing nagpa-practice kaming mga varsity. Ngayon, mukhang kuha niyo ang space namin sa gym! Hehehehe!
JV Duque, ikaw nga ba ang first ever coach nito?
You make us proud!
Last year's performance...
Samantalang dati, istorbo kayo tuwing nagpa-practice kaming mga varsity. Ngayon, mukhang kuha niyo ang space namin sa gym! Hehehehe!
JV Duque, ikaw nga ba ang first ever coach nito?
You make us proud!
Last year's performance...
Saturday, September 6, 2008
My one great love
I was trying to figure out the answer to the question Bakit ba kasi mahal na mahal kita? and stumbled upon this article by Lucie Chevalier. The introduction caught my attention, it says:
Some people -- it is not certain if they are the lucky ones or the unlucky ones -- have had One Great Love; a love whose intensity and mutuality allowed no doubt that it was the real thing; a love that never lost its quality of strangeness; a love that, years later, still makes the throat catch when it's remembered; a love whose unfolding remolded the selves of both people, as when a graft on a branch forms a new tree. In some cases -- may they be happy! -- these couples stay together. In others, the couple resist the graft, spooked by the power of the enchantment that entwined them, or disliking the new hybrid. They separate, and the separation is damaging; it is like surgery. The two people stagger off their separate ways, unentwined, fiercely seeking to resume their prior independence, but it cannot be fully restored. They retain the twists of the joint self they formed against the now-absent other half. How can they stop feeling the loss of the vanished lover when their shape still reflects his outline? How can they learn to grow separately, how can they bring themselves to bend to a new suitor? And will they ever find a new graft to complement their hybrid nature?
I was awed. Nicely written. I have tried and tried to answer the question but for almost two decades now I haven't found the answer yet. I don't intend to answer the question anymore though I am intrigued by the depth of the question. Mahirap kasi talagang sagutin. Pero masarap damhin. Time and time again, we may feel that we have given it all for the person we truly love. But it proves us wrong, we can give more than we can imagine. And that intrigues me. The power of love. I cannot argue with it.
Love really does move in mysterious ways.
Some people -- it is not certain if they are the lucky ones or the unlucky ones -- have had One Great Love; a love whose intensity and mutuality allowed no doubt that it was the real thing; a love that never lost its quality of strangeness; a love that, years later, still makes the throat catch when it's remembered; a love whose unfolding remolded the selves of both people, as when a graft on a branch forms a new tree. In some cases -- may they be happy! -- these couples stay together. In others, the couple resist the graft, spooked by the power of the enchantment that entwined them, or disliking the new hybrid. They separate, and the separation is damaging; it is like surgery. The two people stagger off their separate ways, unentwined, fiercely seeking to resume their prior independence, but it cannot be fully restored. They retain the twists of the joint self they formed against the now-absent other half. How can they stop feeling the loss of the vanished lover when their shape still reflects his outline? How can they learn to grow separately, how can they bring themselves to bend to a new suitor? And will they ever find a new graft to complement their hybrid nature?
I was awed. Nicely written. I have tried and tried to answer the question but for almost two decades now I haven't found the answer yet. I don't intend to answer the question anymore though I am intrigued by the depth of the question. Mahirap kasi talagang sagutin. Pero masarap damhin. Time and time again, we may feel that we have given it all for the person we truly love. But it proves us wrong, we can give more than we can imagine. And that intrigues me. The power of love. I cannot argue with it.
Love really does move in mysterious ways.
Friday, September 5, 2008
Warning signal
Incubus - Drive
Sometimes, I feel the fear of,
uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask
myself how much I'll let the fear
take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to a faint,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I, am beginning to find that I,
should be the one behing the wheel.
Chorus
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
with open arms and open eyes, yeah.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
I'll be there....
So if I, decide to waiver my,
chance to be one of, the hive.
Will I, choose water over wine
and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before, and it seems to be the way,
that everyone else gets around,
But lately I'm, beginning to find that,
When I drive myself my light is found.
Chorus
Would you choose, water over wine,
hold the wheel and drive...
Chorus
Sometimes, I feel the fear of,
uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask
myself how much I'll let the fear
take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to a faint,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I, am beginning to find that I,
should be the one behing the wheel.
Chorus
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
with open arms and open eyes, yeah.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
I'll be there....
So if I, decide to waiver my,
chance to be one of, the hive.
Will I, choose water over wine
and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before, and it seems to be the way,
that everyone else gets around,
But lately I'm, beginning to find that,
When I drive myself my light is found.
Chorus
Would you choose, water over wine,
hold the wheel and drive...
Chorus
Blink and you miss a beat
Keep pne of your eyes open at all times.
Think that you're on the brink?
The shit hasn't even begun to hit the fan.
Consequence you'll see will be stranger
than a ganng of drunken mimes.
Situation has a stink.
Better clear the air before
your son becomes a man.
Blink, everything's been augmented,
you've been left so far behind.
I think, for sure, next time
you should wear a pair of eyes
in the back or your head.
Consequence you've seen
has been stranger than si-fi of any kind.
Situation baffles me,
I guess it's ture, you too
are one of the walking dead.
(Chorus):
You better think fast!
Casue you never know
whats comming around the bend.
You better not blink!
For consequence is a bigger
word than you think.
It's bigger than you or me
(Repeat) Chorus
If we train our breathing, we can control our emotions--that is, we can cope with the happiness and pain in our lives. We should practice until we feel this; our practice is not complete until we can see this clearly.
- Buddhadasa Bhikkhu, "Mindfulness with Breathing"
Whenever I feel sad, lonely, stressed and what-have-you's I always make it a point to drive. There's so much energy inside of me that needs to be released. And I usually find an outlet in driving. During my younger years, it was writing. Well, at some point something changes. Now I can find release in driving.
Yesterday I felt the need for speed, so to speak. So I took my helmet, rode my bike and started driving. I have no fixed destination in mind. I just wanted to see nature while driving. I headed north, but before I could even reach Patubig my brakes went nuts. Lumusot ang preno ko sa harap. I don't normally use the front brake but my speed was 60km/hr and when I reach that speed I simultaneously use the front and rear brakes to control my Little Devil. So, I slowed down and tried to fix it. But I can't.
I decided to hear Mass. What happened during the celebration was again, inspiring. I don't know why but I found myself sobbing. After a little chat with God I knew right then and there that everything will be alright. He does that, always. And I believe him.
I guess that warning signal transmitted itself to the other side of the globe. Such connection that we have can never be equalled. And I intend to keep it, handle it with care. Treasure it.
Truly, when danger lurks behind me a warning signal is transmitted at the other side of the globe. Don't know why, don't know how. It just is.
Sometimes, I feel the fear of,
uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask
myself how much I'll let the fear
take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to a faint,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I, am beginning to find that I,
should be the one behing the wheel.
Chorus
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
with open arms and open eyes, yeah.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
I'll be there....
So if I, decide to waiver my,
chance to be one of, the hive.
Will I, choose water over wine
and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before, and it seems to be the way,
that everyone else gets around,
But lately I'm, beginning to find that,
When I drive myself my light is found.
Chorus
Would you choose, water over wine,
hold the wheel and drive...
Chorus
Sometimes, I feel the fear of,
uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask
myself how much I'll let the fear
take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to a faint,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I, am beginning to find that I,
should be the one behing the wheel.
Chorus
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
with open arms and open eyes, yeah.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
I'll be there....
So if I, decide to waiver my,
chance to be one of, the hive.
Will I, choose water over wine
and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before, and it seems to be the way,
that everyone else gets around,
But lately I'm, beginning to find that,
When I drive myself my light is found.
Chorus
Would you choose, water over wine,
hold the wheel and drive...
Chorus
Blink and you miss a beat
Keep pne of your eyes open at all times.
Think that you're on the brink?
The shit hasn't even begun to hit the fan.
Consequence you'll see will be stranger
than a ganng of drunken mimes.
Situation has a stink.
Better clear the air before
your son becomes a man.
Blink, everything's been augmented,
you've been left so far behind.
I think, for sure, next time
you should wear a pair of eyes
in the back or your head.
Consequence you've seen
has been stranger than si-fi of any kind.
Situation baffles me,
I guess it's ture, you too
are one of the walking dead.
(Chorus):
You better think fast!
Casue you never know
whats comming around the bend.
You better not blink!
For consequence is a bigger
word than you think.
It's bigger than you or me
(Repeat) Chorus
If we train our breathing, we can control our emotions--that is, we can cope with the happiness and pain in our lives. We should practice until we feel this; our practice is not complete until we can see this clearly.
- Buddhadasa Bhikkhu, "Mindfulness with Breathing"
Whenever I feel sad, lonely, stressed and what-have-you's I always make it a point to drive. There's so much energy inside of me that needs to be released. And I usually find an outlet in driving. During my younger years, it was writing. Well, at some point something changes. Now I can find release in driving.
Yesterday I felt the need for speed, so to speak. So I took my helmet, rode my bike and started driving. I have no fixed destination in mind. I just wanted to see nature while driving. I headed north, but before I could even reach Patubig my brakes went nuts. Lumusot ang preno ko sa harap. I don't normally use the front brake but my speed was 60km/hr and when I reach that speed I simultaneously use the front and rear brakes to control my Little Devil. So, I slowed down and tried to fix it. But I can't.
I decided to hear Mass. What happened during the celebration was again, inspiring. I don't know why but I found myself sobbing. After a little chat with God I knew right then and there that everything will be alright. He does that, always. And I believe him.
I guess that warning signal transmitted itself to the other side of the globe. Such connection that we have can never be equalled. And I intend to keep it, handle it with care. Treasure it.
Truly, when danger lurks behind me a warning signal is transmitted at the other side of the globe. Don't know why, don't know how. It just is.
Hawakan mo ang manibela
paliparin ang gunita sa mga ala-ala
lunurin ang sarili sa hangin ng pagsinta
hanggang sa umangat ang gulong sa kalsada.
Subukan mong bitawan ang manibela
tanggalin ang kontrol sa mapagbirong tadhana
isabay ang katawan sa paghampas ng gunita
hanggang maramdaman mong ang katawa'y patang-pata na.
Lamunin ka man ng alikabok at ulan
hayaang pumailanlang sa kalawakan ang iyong agam-agam
buksan ang puso sa katotohanan
na ika'y isang sinumpang nilalang.
Kaya't sa saliw ng hangin ika'y pumailanlang
kalimutan ang lahat at iyong ipaglaban
pag-ibig na tunay ay iyong panghawakan
ilang libong taon man ang magdaan,
ikaw lang, ikaw lang.
Kaya mula ngayon sa katotohan isisilang
ang sinumpang nilalang na nasadlak sa kalawakan
unti-unting gabayan sa pagtayo sa kawalan
mula sa kinasasadlakang kasinungalingan.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
On fears and trust
This I learned and relearned for the nth time..
Never think that I believe I should set out a "system of teaching" to help people understand the way. Never cherish such a thought. What I proclaim is the truth as I have discovered it and "a system of teaching" has no meaning because the truth can’t be cut up into pieces and arranged in a system.
- Diamond Sutra
I should identify my fears, I once thought that I have none. But now, everything changed. Everything.
IDENTIFY THE FEARS THAT KEEP YOU FROM YOUR DREAMS
by Lisa Jimenez, M. Ed.
Most people spend their energy running from, or denying their fears. They waste this precious energy in denial. They react with excuses, anxiety, sabotage, and self-defeating behaviors. Don’t let this happen to you! When you expose your true fears, you break their control over you. Have the courage to face your fears and free yourself to get on with all you were meant to do, have, and be.
Which fear has the most control over you and your behaviors today? Is it the fear of rejection? Fear of failure? Fear of making decisions? Fear of commitment and responsibility? Fear of loss? Fear of success?
Or is it a combination of these fears? Take some time to evaluate your behaviors and find the messages of fear in them. We’ll go through each of these fears in the next few articles and discover which fears are holding you back.
Identify the Fears That Keep You from Your Dreams!
Gusto kong maglahong parang bula.
Never think that I believe I should set out a "system of teaching" to help people understand the way. Never cherish such a thought. What I proclaim is the truth as I have discovered it and "a system of teaching" has no meaning because the truth can’t be cut up into pieces and arranged in a system.
- Diamond Sutra
I should identify my fears, I once thought that I have none. But now, everything changed. Everything.
IDENTIFY THE FEARS THAT KEEP YOU FROM YOUR DREAMS
by Lisa Jimenez, M. Ed.
Most people spend their energy running from, or denying their fears. They waste this precious energy in denial. They react with excuses, anxiety, sabotage, and self-defeating behaviors. Don’t let this happen to you! When you expose your true fears, you break their control over you. Have the courage to face your fears and free yourself to get on with all you were meant to do, have, and be.
Which fear has the most control over you and your behaviors today? Is it the fear of rejection? Fear of failure? Fear of making decisions? Fear of commitment and responsibility? Fear of loss? Fear of success?
Or is it a combination of these fears? Take some time to evaluate your behaviors and find the messages of fear in them. We’ll go through each of these fears in the next few articles and discover which fears are holding you back.
Identify the Fears That Keep You from Your Dreams!
Gusto kong maglahong parang bula.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
SMCM Intrams 2008
Ethan and Janna dancing Push It
Went to my HS alma mater before going to work this morning. I kinda miss being in HS. Lots of memories. Hmmmmm.. I also felt proud of my nephew and godson Ethan and my niece and goddaughter Janna for performing well this morning.
Ganun pala feeling ng may anak! Ehek!
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