It's here again...

...my old, usual self resurfaces challenging what I believe now - simple life. I am bored. And when I am bored I think - a lot. About what? A lot things... life, why am I like this, what's my purpose in life, am I on the right path? Things like that resurfaces, I have settled it a long time ago but it started bugging me this morning.

See this?

It's pretty obvious huh?

I need to work. I need a stable job.

And I am going to get it.

I have to act, now.

Will I go to Bicol next week?

Well, I wanted to. But I still have a class and my budget is really tight. O is leaving on Sunday and she's inviting me to come and take a break there (as if two and half months of having no stable job is not valid as a break). I haven't been to the Bicol Region. During my Palarong Pambansa days the farthest that I've been to was Iloilo City, south of the country. And my farthest north was well, Zambales. It was also my first. And I have lots of kilig memories of that first Central Luzon Regional Athletic Association Meet. That's worthy of another post, so let's leave it at that.

I asked O how much the fare was if we travel by land and she told that it was a thousand and give hundred bucks. So, I told her that I don't have that much money to spare and even if I have, I would rather spend it on my house. Kuripot ba? I'm just being practical. Anyways, we'd all be there in August during her wedding day. For the record, if and when I attend that wedding, it will be the first. I always have an excuse when it comes to attending weddings. And that too, is worthy of another blog post. So, let's move on.

I have heard so much of Sorsogon. And if and when I finally get there, voices would be all over my head. Memories will be triggered which will probably lead to a lot of sighs and heartaches. I just hope O does not intend to take us to Sorsogon in August or else I would have another excuse not to be there.

So what's new?

It's Saturday, got to school earlier than usual because I was expecting to talk to the President. But she wasn't going to work. I was told that she just got back from a conference at Iloilo and will be back to work on Monday. Ok, fine. So, I went to the admin office and reviewed RA 1425. Went to class earlier than usual and did my stuff. One student commented about my hair, yeah, yeah... I'm Wolverine's look-alike once again, the hair thing. Hindi daw bagay, magpagupit na daw ako. Also, mag-aanak ako sa binyag sa baby ng isang student ko. Bawal daw tumanggi sabi ng matatanda, so what the heck?

Went home an hour earlier than usual. Switched on the TV and tuned in to the Hallmark channel. Interesting movie I saw, di ko pa alam ang title nung una but after a commercial break I knew what the title was, Reading Room. Pretty inspiring story, kaya lang I never got the chance to finish it. Itong si S kasi biglang nag-text na nasa labas na daw siya ng bahay namin. So I went out, nagulat pa ako dahil kasama niya si P5. Ang lakas ng trip nung dalawa! Ang usapan nila, Trinoma ang punta nila. Tapos napunta ang usapan sa barbeque, ang ending dito sa Adel-Rams. Hanep! Kaya hayun sinamahan ko sila, kwento dito, kwento dun. Tapos nag-Aling Francia para sa mga pasalubong na puto at chicharon. Sabi ko, iuwi na nila ako at ayaw kong ginagabi sa daan. Hehehehe!

When I got here, Yza was already waiting for me. Pinapainom na siya ng meds niya, humahabol na sa akin. Sabi ko magbibihis muna ako. Pagbaba ko, sumama agad. Nakipaglaro ng konti tapos hayun, natulog na. Sabi ng daddy niya, ang galing daw. Kagigising lang daw nung bata dumating ako. Pero pagkabuhat ko, natulog na naman. Sus!

Parang topic kanina sa kwentuhan ah, paggawa ng bata: oo o hindi? *esep esep*

This isn't supposed to be about ranting..

...pero dahil sa isang estudyanteng tamad, biglang nagbago ang mood ko. Uminit ang ulo ko, sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko buti na lang hindi ko siya estudyante dahil kung hindi sasabihan ko siya na i-enrol ulit ang subject next semester dahil ngayon pa lang 5.0 na ang grade niya!

This isn't also about the money, I don't care if I'll be getting only 500 bucks for it since nakihati pa ang brother ko. This is his raket not mine. Nagkataon lang na super busy siya and I had to take cover for him. But what irritates me the most are these types of students who would pay for something that they should be doing in the first place! Para makapasa nagbabayad sila ng iba para maka comply sa requirement ng course. Website making is an easy task. For a CompSci student it should be an easy task. But students nowadays always has an excuse - their hands are full, they need to review for the finals, term papers that needs to be done, blah blah blah. OMG!

Imagine, ang kailangan na lang niyang gawin ay ibigay sa akin lahat ng inputs - materials, text, info, images - tapos ako na nga ang magli layout nun para mabuo ang website pero 'yung simpleng input na lang gusto ako pa ang mag research?! Anak ng tinapa! Pasalamat ka at hindi ako ang prof mo hija!

Kaya nga ako hindi bilib sa mga may MA, MS, Ed.D, Ph.D.pagkatapos ng mga pangalan nila eh. Dahil napakadaling gawin nun sa Recto. But that topic is worthy of another post. For now, I just need to breathe and cool my head off.

Just another TGIF

Nothing spectacular, nothing unusual, nothing weird. It's just my regular Friday, in anticipation of Saturday. So, I did my laundry, cleaned my room, changed the sheets and tuned in to Magic 89.9 for Friday Magic Madness.

Listening to the songs which I grew up in brings back so many memories. They just played When in Rome's "The Promise" and hell, may mind was racing 110km/hour only this time my gear was in reverse. And then I heard Jamie Rivera's "Fallen" which back in my high school days I remember me requesting to be played in the dedication booth during the '89 Foundation Day.

Ah, memories. I wish I was Hiro Nakamura with the power of teleportation. I would gladly return to 1989 and stayed there for as long as I could.

Senti. This happens when I listen to the Magic every Friday.

Couldn't help but post this

...unedited version of Jayson's email to me regarding what he calls "political rumble" in our country.

aun gandang gabi po ms. abie
ahahahahahh
vigilant ba?
kyo nagturo nyan,
ahahahaha
pananaw q, nakakainis,,, nakaka walang gana,,
puro corruption n lang ngyari sa bansa naten
tama ho kayo dun na close knit family ties ang dahilan kaya nagiging corrupt sila. agree aq dun.
para tuloy ang nangyayari,, kakandidado lang sila para kumurakot ng pera,, ndi para pagsilbihan ang mga mamamayan,, sino nmn kaya ang susunod na mangungurakot..
ang taong bayan kasi ang nag sa suffer,,, sa atin ibinabato, ipinasasalo ang utang ng bansang pilipinas,,
kaya tuloy kahit anong kayod ni juan dela cruz,, gutom pa din.....
araw araw sa balota puro iyon,, nagassawa n nga ang mga tao,, para bang immune na sila,,
kaya ang iba mas pinili n lng ang magtrabaho kesa sumama sa mga rally n yan,,,,,wala rin namang kcng masgyayari,,
ndi nmn sila magkakapera don,
at c gloria,, ewan q, bato n ata, ndi marunong makiramdam,,, bingi samga isyu tungkol msa kanya....
interesting kasi ang topic about politika,, esp. d2 sa pinas,, napaka kulay...........
haiz,, kaya nga aq.... ndi ko n cla masyado pinag iiisip.. bahala sila sa buhay nila at bahala aq sa buhay q. ahahahahaha
aun salamat ho sa pag reply. till next email q ho ul8.
mis ko n kc klase naten...

Two things that I noticed: the manner in which it was written and the text messaging format of writing and email.

This was supposed to be my masters' thesis which was rejected by the former dean of the BSU graduate school. It really bothers me that students write this way. I don't know if its just me. But others view the writing style as a language evolution, because language is dynamic.

Anyway, back to the content of the email. I never knew that they missed the discussions in class this much. It made me smile. Ah, the joy of teaching. Something like this can never be taken away from you by anyone. Sabi nga sa isang credit card commercial before, PRICELESS.

Ripped from the Friendster apps

YOUR SIGN - THE WATER OX

Today's Horoscope (February 27, 2008)
Zodiac Details by Suzanne White. Horoscopes by Master Rao.

Sentimental life will be well influenced; but understanding can be better if you show more good will, for instance by being less possessive. You'll have to control your passions which will heavily bear on your reason. Your highest ambitions will have a chance to be realized. You'll knock out all obstacles so as to climb to the summit of the professional hierarchy. You'll doubtlessly need a supplement of vitamin B in order to fight against nervousness and anxiety; eat meats such as lamb and beef kidney, dried vegetables, and whole wheat bread.



Well, for lack of something to post (I couldn't think straight right now) I looked at my Friendster profile and read today's horoscope which I find a bit interesting. Let me list the things that I find interesting:

• be less possessive - I nearly fell off my chair when I read this. Ako? Possessive? Kailan pa?
  
• control my passions - Yes, I agree. I could be passionate at what I do and for what I believe in. But I can be swayed too. At iisang tao lang ang may alam kung paano gawin 'yun. *wink*
• climbing the summit of professional hierarchy - Well, well, well. Does this mean that I'll be starting full-time work next week? I better be!
• on Vitamin B, lamb, beef kidney, and whole wheat bread - Hello! I got allergic to Vitamin B after a week of taking it. And according to the low purine diet that the doctor gave me, I have to stay away from meat, kidney and whole wheat bread. Are you trying to have me killed?!

Hehehe. Sabi nga ni Stine, guide lang daw 'yan. Pwede kong sundin, pwedeng hindi. Pwede kong paniwalaan, pwede ring hindi.

Pero gusto ko paniwalaan 'yung climbing the summit of professional hierarchy ek-ek. I really, really need it.

40 secrets about me

[One] Who was your last text from?
- Chocco, my cousin

[Two] Where was your default pic taken?
- The black and white one? At CyberSoft. The President's room at around seven in the morning. Hehehehe.

[Three] What's your middle name?
- Cruz

[Four] Your current relationship status?
- Committed

[Five] Does your crush(s) like you back?
- Never bothered to ask

[Six] What is your current mood?
- Craving for coffee

[Seven] What's your dad's name?
- Resty

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
- Gray

[Nine] What was the last thing you drank?
- Coffee

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
- Yes, but it will alter a lot of lives

[Eleven] Have a crazy side?
- I have my idiosyncracies

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
- In reality? Just a motorcycle accident. In my dreams, a lot of near death experiences

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
- Blogging

[Fourteen] Angry at anyone?
- Trying not to ;)

[Fifteen] Do you wanna see somebody right now?
- Yep

[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
- Jim Carrey and Benjamin Franklin

[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
- Last week

[Eighteen] Who would you do anything for?
- My significant other and my best friend

[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
- Physically? Eyes and hair

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
- That's for me to know and for you to find out

[twenty-three] Favorite movie?
- Matrix Trilogy

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
- Yes. Wonder Pets, Dora the Explorer

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
- Coffee

[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other languages?
- English. Filipino. A bit of Spanish, had Spanish I and II back in college

[Twenty-nine] If you could describe your life in one word, what would it be?
- Struggling

[Thirty] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
- Have I?

[Thirty one] Do you like the rain?
- Very much.

[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?
- Where to get the finances for my house improvement

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing?
- Cooking brunch for my Dad

[Thirty-five] What are you listening to?
- Gone by Pearl Jam

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around the person you like?
- I am my usual self, only a lot naughty

Fourty] Who was the last person to make you smile?
- Yzabelle

5 hours in front of the laptop

...made my shoulders hurt, but I can take it. My eyes could stare at the monitor for more than 12 hours a day. Done that before and I'm doing it again. Hmmm... would it raise the grade of my eyes? Probably. Oh well, my brother let me take the website making job for a graduating ComSci student. I cared enough to ask why she needed someone to do it for her for a price. My brother told me that she probably had a lot of things at hand. I think otherwise. Tinatamad siguro o baka naman wala talaga natutunan sa klase kaya willing magbayad just to comply with the professors' requirement. O baka naman type ng kapatid ko kaya pumayag na gawin 'yung website.

And so I began to think again. Questions popped in my head like bubbles produced by a bubble machine. What motivates us to do things? Is it money? Is it utang na loob? Or we do things because we await something in exchange for what we're supposed to do? Ganun ba talaga? Lagi dapat may kapalit?

In communication, sabi nila dapat two way, there is the sender and there is a receiver. If the message sent is not received by the receiver, walang komunikasyon na nangyari. Pero what if the message was received kaya lang hindi naintindihan ng receiver, wala bang komunikasyon na nangyari? Take this for example:

Little Tree, a native of Kalinga Apayao, came to Manila in search of greener pastures. He doesn’t know anybody in Manila neither does he understand any other language other than his dialect, Ilocano. After two (2) months in Manila, Little Tree still cannot find a job, frustrated, he robbed a passenger jeepney. Unfortunately, members of the Manila Police District responded quickly and there and then arrested Little Tree. One of the policemen told Little Tree in English that he has the right to remain silent and to avail of the services of a lawyer if he can afford it, otherwise, he will be provided with one.

May nangyari bang komunikasyon dun kahit hindi sila nagkaintindihan? Iba kasi 'yung narinig mo sa naintindihan mo eh. Araw-araw kasi nakakarinig ako ng sigawan, nga mga pag-uusap na paangil, oo nga may nagpapadala ng mensahe, may tumatanggap rin ng mensahe. Pero naririnig lang, hindi naiintindihan.

San nga ba papunta 'tong post na 'to? Hindi ko rin alam. Baka ikaw, alam mo.

I'm just thinking out loud.

Panaginip

Bihira akong makatulog sa tanghali. At talagang hindi ko nakagawian. But this time when I decided to watch TV in my room and laid down on my bed, my eyes became droopy. I was fighting it at first, trying to concentrate on the series that I'm watching. It was one my favorites, Law and Order. But I can't. So my eyes and my body gave in. I dozed off.

So, anong bago dun? Ok lang naman na makatulog ako dahil puyat ako at maagang gumising kanina. It was this dream that I had.

Dito rin ang panaginip ko, sa kwarto ko. Akala ko nga totoo. Hindi lang talaga ako makadilat. Pero naririnig ko sila. First it was my Dad, heard his voice when he said Tingnan mo, kamukhang-kamukha talaga ni Junior si Beegee, pati 'yung baba niya. I know I smiled when he said that, ang ipinagtataka ko lang hindi sila (para kasing may kausap siya) nag-react man lang when I smiled. Natatawa na nga ako nun kasi ako na naman ang nakita eh. Then he said something about sasabuyan ako ng pabango or ng papaya (hindi ko nga alam bakit papaya eh, kung tubig pa sana maiintindihan ko) something to that effect. Ang akala ko he was trying to wake me up. Pero hindi, talagang may isinaboy siya. Hindi ko lang maamoy. At hindi rin ako nagising. After that I heard my Mom's voice but I couldn't hear what she said. Parang nag-agree lang siya kay Dad tapos sinabuyan niya rin ako nung isinaboy ni Dad sa akin. Then I heard Nicole open the door and called me, Tita Beegee... she paused for a while waiting for an answer but I couldn't talk. Then I heard the door close.

So, paano ako nagising? Tumunog ang cellphone ko. I got it and read the message. And then I got up and opened my laptop. So here I am, writing this post. Still trying to make sense of the dream.

Can somebody interpret it for me?

Can't sleep.. part two

Well, for the second straight night I couldn't sleep. Not because I have of things on my mind like last night. It was because I slept around four in the afternoon and woke up at nine in the evening.

Now what did I miss?

A dinner party at Kamay Kainan Trinoma, it was Pastor's birthday. One of my former colleagues at OLFU. Ga and Olive texted me around lunchtime about it but my cellular network's signal has been erratic the whole day. I needed to get out of the house to get a signal or I have to stay inside my room to maintain the signal. Couldn't do that. I had to take care of Yza for the most part the day. Mom was busy cooking the whole day. So, I wasn't able to make it. This was the second time that I failed to make it to Kamay Kainan, the first one was when Ga threw out a thanksgiving dinner for Jackie after passing the nurse's board exam last year. For sure alaskado na naman ako when I get to see those guys.

Yari na naman ako dun sa mga 'yun!

Can't sleep

.. kaya heto nangangarap lang ako magkaron nito...
at magkaron ng adventure habang nakasakay dito, mapa bundok man ang destinasyon o sa mga deserted areas..

I wanted to think out loud but opted not to. I have a lot of things on my mind and I need to organize all of them before I can finally put them here. Seeds of depression seeping in again? Probably.

And this blog photo uploading thing is making me loose my patience. Better call it a night off. I'll just do other things before this laptop finds itself thrown down the stairs.

I need to drive. Real hard to get things off of my head.

From teaching to bowling

I look forward to Saturdays. Because it's the time that I can get out of the house and become a productive citizen of this country. Some may say that we have been forsaken by God, with all the political bickering, corruption and loss of moral ascendancy of leaders, still I love my country. And I get all lit up when former students come to me and simply open a topic regarding the current political situation. They weren't even geared towards the social sciences, they were more on the technical side - my last semester's engineering section. I saw them today, and they approached me gusto lang makipag kwentuhan tungkol kay Lozada, kay GMA, sa mga cabinet members involved in the ZTE-NBN controversy. Edson, Rey, Marjun and Jayson (who sent me an email expressing his frustration on what is happening with our country the other day) all had their two cents worth on the issue. I gladly listened to them. We exchanged views for about ten minutes before we parted ways. I have to attend to my class, so I excused myself. Only to find out that classes this afternoon have been suspended. May bowling tournament daw kami ngayong ala una sa JM Mendoza sports center. I was given a shirt, isuot ko daw for the tournament. Eh naka pormal ako, slacks with the usual long sleeves with embroidered design chinese collared top. So, I went home. Kaya nga nakapag post pa ako ngayon.

Nakakatuwa talaga. This is the reason why I could never leave my profession. Edson, Rey, Marjun and Jayson, thanks for reminding me of my purpose. Kahit makukulit kayo, the fact that you are now concerned and vigilant with the way things are going in our society makes me so proud of you guys.

What's on my mind?

It's been a long time since I've had images like this on my mind. And it gets stronger everyday. Ah! Whatever happened to the concept of delayed sexual gratification? Hmmmm... somebody bring me coffee, now!

Routine check

My HS les classmate popped me a message this evening. I had a late afternoon nap and woke up at around eight in the evening. Medyo disoriented pa nga ako when I woke up. I opened my laptop and checked my mails. Then the message came in. Had a short chat with her, still wounded from a breakup kaya panay ang travel. Baka dun daw siya makahanap ng partner. Loko nga, she sent me astrological forecasts for 2008 and stuff like that. Sabi niya guide lang naman daw. Pareho kasi kaming Capricorn, year of the Ox. At sabi daw sa forecast, panay fling na lang daw muna siya. Mahirap daw kasi kami ma-in love, serious masyado. Bull pa. Na open ang relationship issues, kinumusta ang relationship ko. Told her we're fine, we're okay. LDR is hard but I'm used to it, she's not. Blah blah blah. She gave me a word of advice, sabi niya in her experience, when routine changes there is something wrong. Proven na daw 'yun sa kanya. But she said, that's just her.

I told her that relationships entail trust and respect. Love is never a question, at least for me. But trust and respect is a big issue. When something goes wrong, if the relationship doesn't work out, I always tell myself - maybe I have served my purpose. And I wish my ex-partner well. A good life, a happy relationship, that maybe I haven't been able to give her.

Gaga nga eh, dati daw ganun din siya. Kaya lang 'yung mga naging partners niya, wala naman paki. Wag daw akong martir. Told her it's just my take on relationships. I don't usually remember the bad times, the good times I remember vividly.

My conversation with Stine made me think. Should I or should I not make a routine check?

Hmmmm.. I'll just take Rivotril na lang. Hehehe!

Dual sim active standy mobile phones

I was dreaming of having one of this, the Samsung D880 duos mobile phone. A slider phone, wow it really caught my attention. It's the first branded phone ever released that can handle two sim cards simultaneously. It simply means that you can have your Globe + Smart or Globe + Sun or Smart + Sun network working at the same time. Simply put, it's like having two mobile phones in one. The fact that it is triband appeals to me even more. But it lacks 3G functionality which the Verzio Duplii has.

The Duplii is fine, it's triband has a dual sim active standy by functionality with a 3G capability, and it can also boast of having a memory card but the keypad layout is a little bit different from what we're used to. The space key is place in the middle right corner as well as the number zero. Hmmm.. another things, it's a candy bar type of phone and it is bulky.

What I have right now is the B889 China dual sim card phone. The features are almost the same, 2 sim card which works simultaneously, a card slot for sd memory, video capability. It doesn't have a built-in radio but it can play MP3 music. The keypad layout is the same as that of Duplii, which for non-Nokia users or branded mobile phone users could take a lot of getting used to. But what turned me off about this phone is the fact that it was not triband. The box and the manual says that it is. But it is not. Oh well, you can't have it all.

Price difference is also a factor for choosing these gadgets. The D880 costs P20,000 in Samsung shops, P17,500 in other accredited stores with one year warranty on parts and service. The Duplii costs P15,000 at Wellcom stores with a two year service and parts warranty. And of course, the cheapest would be the B889. I got mine via trade with my Nokia 3110c plus P3500 cash. But the price when I got it was still at P7000.

When I think about gadgets now, I simply sigh and say kesa dalhin ko diyan ang pera ko. Ipapaayos ko na lang ang bahay ko.

At the end of the day, 'yung bahay ko pa rin ang naiisip ko. I am bordering on obsession na yata. At least I'm getting my mind off on being horny. Hahahaha!

Woke up early

... at around four in the morning and I couldn't sleep anymore. A tablet of Rivotril is not enough to keep me sleeping for longer hours. Baligtad pa nga ata epekto.

Have to take coffee. My mind cannot function without it.

Kevin Roy's song

I was arranging my filing system in my laptop when I stumbled upon my old Himig Handog MP3 songs, I only picked a few songs that I liked. There were two songs that really caught my attention because they were not the usual mushy stuff that we hear from love songs. One is Parokya ni Edgar's "This Guy is in Love with You Pare" and Kevin Roy's "Kailan Pa Man."

I know most of you guys are familiar with Parokya ni Edgar's song that's why I chose to post the lyrics of Kevin Roy's Kailan Pa Man. You could also listen to the song as you read my blog entries. I am pretty sure romantics out there would react to the lyrics of the song.

Hindi ko maintindihan
Pangakong magpakailanman
Nagsinungaling ka lang diyan
Ang bukas mo’t ng sino man

Ay di nakikita at di maisasalba
Kung tangayin sa agos ng panahon
Kaya pansamantala habang nandito pa
Tanggapin mo ang pag-ibig ko ngayon

Hanggang sa dulo ng mundo
Huwag kang mangakong ganito
Mahal ang pamasahe mo
Magmahalan tayo dito

[Chorus]
At di man kailan pa man ang ating samahan
Sarilihin ang pagkakataon
Kaya pansamantala habang nandito pa
Tanggapin mo ang pag-ibig ko ngayon

ADLIB

Tuwing kapiling lang kita
Ang mundo ko’y sumisigla
Makulimlim man ang panahon
Buhay ang buhay ko ngayon

Bahay-bahayan

That was how my dad described my house nung isinama ko sila ni Mami sa Sta. Maria. Fair enough, I told myself. Ako lang naman kasi ang titira dun and hopefully my significant other once she decides to come home. I know my Dad doesn't like the idea that I am finally moving out. But as I've said time and again, I am of legal age and I am entitled to independence. Kung sa PAO nga nakuha kong lumaya, sa sarili ko pa kayang pamilya? But I doesn't mean that I would totally cut off my ties with them. I just want my siblings to learn and experience the meaning of responsibility. I would still be around if they need me.

I was thinking of cutting cost for the improvements I wanted. Bare type kasi ang nakuha kong unit. Tinitingnan ko nga kung ano ang pwede kong makuhang gamit dito sa kwarto ko. When I went to the hardware yesterday and asked for the prices of the materials that I need, here's what came up:

• P850 - 5 bags of cement
  
• P500 - 1/2 elf of white sand
  
• P600 - 6 kilograms of colored cement (I'm thinking blue or black)
• P3,000 - 4 pieces of ordinary 3/4 plywood
• P400 - 1 piece of black formica
• P170 - 2 pieces of aluminum for the formica

That totals P5,520 hindi pa kasama ang labor dun. Hindi pa rin klaro kay Alex kung ilang araw niya gagawin. That is why I'm locked up in my room right now thinking of how to cut cost. I wanted to have a mini bar na idudugtong ko dun sa nakaporma nang sink. Iniisip ko kasi instead of buying a dinner table, pwedeng 'yun na lang ang dinner table ko. Kaya rin madami 'yung plywood may naiisip kasi akong design para dun sa 54 x 75 airbed na ilalagay ko dun. Eh may nakita akong pwedeng magamit dito para sa kama, problema ko lang kung mailalabas ko ito ng room at maibaba galing dito sa 2nd floor ng bahay. Ang lapad kasi eh. Pag nailabas ko, pwedeng mabawasan ang gastos ko, pero kung hindi, hanapan ko na lang ng lusot.

Ang goal ko lang naman kasi ngayon, maging livable siya. Presentable ng konti. Maarte kasi ako sa gamit pero 'yun na nga, since I don't have a job right now I don't have the luxury of being luxurious. Hahahaha! Dadaanin ko na lang talaga sa diskarte. 'Yung tipong pag may bumisita, sasabihin nila na "Ikaw na ikaw 'tong bahay mo ah!"

Hmmmm... wait and see. Just wait and see.

*wink*

Matamlay

While I was having dinner last night I was surprised when my Dad approached me, looked at me like I'm a kid kasi hinawakan niya mukha ko tapos tinitigan niya ako then he kissed me in the fore head and said, Matamlay ka ah. Kita sa mata mo. Ano na naman bumabagabag sa isip mo? I just smiled and said, Pagod lang siguro Dad. Probably to make me smile, he said he will wash the two car seats na pinagpaalam ko sa kanya na aarborin ko and that we will bring it to my house early morning tomorrow.

When my Mom got home I asked her if there was something different about me, isang tingin lang niya sabi sa akin, kita sa mata mo na may nararamdaman ka. Weird how parents could easily notice what their children are feeling even without asking them huh? But I guess that's how it works. I am not a parent yet but they always tell me that I have it in me. Probably because I am sensitive to others' feelings. Mas anak ko pa nga daw si Yza sabi nila.

Well, today when I woke up, I feel fine. Just don't know if my eyes will give me away.

*wink*